I MISS YOU AND I LOVE YOU/ Casey Hodges (Daughter) Mom, Wow, you have only been gone a little over a week but it seems like it has already been forever. I miss you so much. I miss everything about you. I would given anything to have you back, even for a minute just to say I love you one more time and to have one more hug. You will always be my best friend, who am I going to get all my advice from? I'll never forget all the times we stayed up talking about everything until 4 and 5 in the morning, and I'll never forget our shopping trips and all the other things we shared. I remember in the summer when they told us you didn't have much time left..it was just me and you in the room and you told me to crawl up in your hospital bed with you just like I used to crawl in bed with you when I was little and we talked for a long time about how you would always be with me no matter what happens and you told me that you just wished God would have given you a little more time to see me get in Centre. Well two months later there you were in my dorm room putting all my clothes up for me. And we both cried when you had to leave, and I remember that moment like it was yesterday and I will never forget it. I hope you hear me when I talk to you every night. I knew this was going to be the hardest time in my life but mom it hurts so much. It just doesn't seem fair. I guess I could go on for days there is so much I want to say to you. The most important thing I want you to know is that I miss you and I love you and I expect you to be waiting for me when its my turn to come up there one day. I LOVE YOU FOREVER Casey (your lil ShugPug :))
As I am sitting here writing this I am picturing you and John throwing back some serious rattlesnakes right now and doing a lot of catching up. That is the only thing that makes me feel any better is to think of you two up together. I can't believe this is happening it isn't fair. Jerry, Toehead, Tracy & I are too young to be burying parents. You guys are supposed to be here for so many things that you have already or will have to miss. We aren't supposed to spend our graduations, wedding days, the births of our children wishing you could be here but that is what we have to do. I wasn't expecting this and now I sit here at a loss for words. Now I see how everyone felt for Dad and Jerry and I when we lost you and it's terrible. There is nothing I can say or do to make them feel better and it kills me. John is a part of my earliest memories and now he is gone and he isn't coming back and it sucks. My only hope is that we can all pull together and get through this...somehow we made it through four years ago and I guess we really don't have a choice but to push through this also. Send us some strength- to Pat who lost her husband, to Tracy & Toe who lost their dad, to Jordis who lost her grandpa, to Dad- who lost his best friend and to all the rest of us who lost a great man who meant so much to so many. We miss you Mom- and we love and will miss you John if you can see this too. You were part of all my best memories at the lake, bowling, birthday parties, father-daughter Christmas shopping. I wish I would have known that night at El Nopal was going to be the last time I would see you I would have had a lot more to say. Take care of each other up there and we will try and take care of each other down here.
Four Years Already... / Casey Hodges (daughter)Read >>
Four Years Already... / Casey Hodges (daughter) Hey Momma,
I cannot believe it has already been four years. I still miss you as much as I did the first day you were gone. I still think of you all day long and still to this day think about picking up the phone to call you even though I know I can't. I have my dental school interview Monday so wish me luck. Be with all of us and give us your strength ok? We love you and miss you and always always always will.
hey/ Casey Hodges (daughter) hey you...just wanted to stop in and say Happy Anniversary! I wish you were here to celebrate it and I know Dad does too! I am super stressed right now because I have to take the DAT again on the 24th and I am not even close to prepared...so a little divine intervention on that day would be more than welcome...=) I also have a test in my organic class next week and some homework due tomorrow which I need to get moving on! My life is definitely a little confusing at the moment...I keep waiting for this big moment of clarity and it never comes...maybe it will soon who knows? I think I need to be more thankful for all the blessings I do have and realize so many people have things that put my so called problems to shame...at least I think that's what you would say if you were here...but not until after you gave me some of that great advice I miss so much. Anyway, I gotta get working on this organic...talk to you soon Miss you like crazy and love you forever!Close
Wow what a mess my life is right now huh? It was nice to feel close to you Sunday even if that place is a little bit creepy..lol. So, I really need you to find a way to help me out because I have a lot going on right now. You know this a rough time of year for me between your birthday/anniversary, the four year mark, followed closely by the holidays and to top it off someone who is supposed to understand all that is doing nothing but making it worse. I am trying really really hard to be the strong person you taught me to be and to be the bigger person in a lot of situations but I am feeling a little lost right now and could sure use you right now. I feel like I try to be the best person I can be and there is always someone there trying to break me down and I don't know why. Anyway, just give me some strength please, I am not sure where else to find it right now and I need it. I love you always & forever.Close
I don't even know where to start. I haven't been on here in a while but I think about you all the time. I miss you and things have been so crazy this year. You have the most amazing daughter ever and I am so proud of her. Casey has had such a big year, and she has been so strong. I'm am excited for what lies ahead for our futures now that we are really growing up. I got a big girl job now, and jocelyn is getting so big. I wish so bad that you could be here to see her. Things are changing and the years have gone by sooo fast. I had of flashback memory the other day when I was in Casey's room, and tripped on the dog's steps that lead to casey's bed, and fell!!!! It reminded me of that night when we stayed up on the couch talking and casey took a big spill in her room when she tripped on a suitcase or something. It was really funny (sorry Case)! lol It's really hard sometimes to try and look back and be so scared because I am afraid that I will forget little memories like that. I just wanted to say thank you for all the great memories and for doing such a good job raising my best friend. I miss you so much and love you!!!
Great news Debbie, You son is kicking ass and taking names in the WSOP, He is living out one of his biggest dreams, and doing a good job of it. We all wish that you could be here to see it. We all know you have a close eye on him.
My little girl is becomming a monster. She looks just like me. Tiffany say that it is a good thing that she came out of her or no one would belive that it was hers. I know Debbie that you told me not to go into the rainstorm with out a unbrella, but I lost it. LOL
We all miss you very much. Please keep a eye on all of us and help us get through the next day. I can not wait till the day we meet again. Till then
Well good and bad news...the good (GREAT) news is that Jerry is going to Vegas on Thursday to play in the Main Event of the WSOP!!!! I am sure you have been watching and already knew that but how exciting! Bad news...I didn't get into dental school this cycle =( but I am going to reapply so hopefully the second time around will work out better for me. More exciting news...Dani is having a baby!! So, looks like I am going to be an aunt (not officially haha but I have a good feeling eventually I will be the aunt). I am soo excited! My graduation party was fun I sure wish you could have been there~! Hard to believe I actually made it through that place! Anyway, I just wanted to stop in and say hey and give ya all the news...I miss you so much and wish you were here.
Well it is FRIDAY and I am studying because, unfortunately, I have a final on SATURDAY! This place is crazy! Two more finals until I am a Centre College graduate!! Crazy huh? Wish you could be here to celebrate with us...I know you will be but it would be a lot more fun if I could really share it with you. I can't believe I am almost done...I worked my butt off for four years and they are finally going to hand me that degree!! I am still on the waiting list for dental school...hopefully I will get some good news on that front because I really do not want to go through the whole application process again! I am sure you have seen what is going on with Cathy. Please give her strength and help her fight it...and be with Suzanne because I know how hard to must be for her to see another best friend go through this. I miss you so much and I wish you could be here. I am so excited about where I'm at and where I'm headed I just wish you could be here to do it all with me. I know how blessed I am though to have had you for as long as I did and to have all the other wonderful people I have been blessed with. I am sure you met Pidge already...you two will get along great! She was always wonderful to me and made me feel like a part of her family from the very beginning. Well I have to go study, I have been putting it off all day! Just be with all of us and give us your strength and your guidance ok? If you would like to give me a little sign of encouragement to get me through these next few weeks it would be much appreciated =)
Love you always & forever and miss you like crazy, CaseyClose
Sorry I haven't been by to say hi lately, things have been pretty busy. It's hard to believe I am about to have another graduation!! I just wish you could be here for it but at least you got to see the one where I gave a speech! =0) Even though I haven't been by I have been thinking about you and missing you a lot, even more than usual (if that is possible) this past week because.....WES BOUGHT A HOUSE!!! =) and I just know how much fun we would have and how much you would love to help us work on it and do the landscaping and everything else. Believe it or not I might actually wander around Frank's by myself for hours looking for the perfect flowers...haha...who knew it would happen one day? Remember how frustrated I used to get when you were agnozing over the right colors lol. The house is right next door to Dani, cool huh? I will (hopefully) be raising my family right next door to their aunt and uncle, down the alley from one set of grandparents and less than 10 minutes away from Dad and Jerry! Doesn't get much better than that. Also, you should see (well I am sure you can see) the basement. Dad has been working hard! It is a beautiful burgandy color and the pool table is being recovered in a matching color. Lol you are probably happy I think you probably weren't a big fan of the blue! Anyway, I wish you were here for all of this....I know you will be here on May 18 but it won't seem right without being able to really really share it with you. I love you more than anything in this world, help me do what I need to do to be successsful and push through this last semester and get back home.
Love you always and forever and miss you like crazy,
Merry Christmas!!! / Casey Hodges (daughter) Hey Momma! Merry Christmas! We wish so badly you could be here but I am sure you guys have quite the celebration up there~=). Tell Grandma, and my grandpas and everyone else and of course my dog that I said Merry Christmas and we love them! I made buckeyes yesterday...wow that was quite the chore lol but worth it because everyone loves them so much and dad made fudge and your famous no-bakes. He was bragging he has never messed up a batch lol you would be proud! Well I have to go clean up a little bit before Jerry and Lauren and Wes come over! I'll be praying to ya at Church tonight! LOVE YOU ALWAYS & FOREVER!!!!Close
Wow, three years tomorrow...it seems like yesterday I was writing on here and you had only been gone two years. Tomorrow is always a hard day, you know that, and then I get the news I got tonight (talk about being hit twice as hard). I am a strong person but there comes a point where you just don't know if you can go through certain things....I really need you to give me some strength and give another important person in my life some strength ok? I really need to get through this year and get home to everyone I love...they need me and I feel so far away even though it's just an hour and a half. Anyway I know it goes without saying that somehow I will have to make it through another year without you but I need to you to know that time doesn't make me think of you any less or miss you any less and my memories of you don't fade. I can still hear your voice and see your face. This is a really exciting but scary time in my life and I wish you could be here for it all. But I know if I get into dental school you'll be celebrating with me and if I don't you'll be crying with me, and when I walk across that stage in May I'll think of you and even though I know you will see it I'll wish I could see the look on your face, and I know when Dad walks me down the aisle eventually you will be bawling like a baby but I sure wish I could see it, and when I hold my son or daughter or Jerry's son or daughter for the first time I'm going to wish you were there to hold him/her too but don't worry they will know all about their grandma and how much she loved them even before they were ever thought of. Well I guess I better go, I could talk to you forever, but the computer screen will never talk back...:*( I love you and miss you and please please be listening tonight because I have the most important prayers I have had in a long time.....love you always & forever Mom...
Dear Casey / Michelle Gonzalez (passerby)
I did not know ur mom but I can say that she had to be an amazing woman just by reading all your tributes to her.You r doing a great job staying in school,I really hope you were one of the lucky 80 that were accepted in Dental school.God is watching over you and also ur dear mom.Sometimes is hard to understand the meaning of the things God send's our way,but u just keep ur faith,work hard and always love ur momIknow she is bursting with pride looking down as her baby moves forward.Take care and I will be praying for u and ur mom.
I miss you. It's getting to that time of year again (your birthday, anniversary, the holidays). I don't know though something about the fall makes me feel close to you. It was really weird today in my religion class when he started to talk about his wife it was like he was talking about you and the things I struggled with for so long. I think maybe I was meant to be in his class maybe just to specifically hear that lecture. Anyway I really miss you and wish you were here. I am pretty worried about dental school, out of 2700 people they take 80. Pretty stiff competition! But I guess if I don't get in then maybe that's just not God's plan for me at this point. That's how I am trying to look at a lot of things lately...just put it in God's hands. That's what you always said right? If he brings you to it he will bring you through it? I feel really guilty that I haven't been to the cemetary much but it's so hard to go there and I really feel closer to you just outside looking at the sky and the trees. Well I have a big presentation I need to work on I just wanted to stop in and say hi and I'm thinking of you like always. Be with all of us and give us that strength you always had. I love you more than anything in this world. Close
Well I go back to Centre in less than two weeks to start my SENIOR year! Crazy huh? I applied to dental school....so hopefully I will get in ..put in a good word for me if ya can! It's going to be really different this year at Centre without Wes but I have a great apartment with Shannon so I am excited about that. I wish you were here to go shopping with me...remember how much fun we had shopping my freshman year. It's not as fun by myself... =( Anyway I was just thinking about you...like always...and wanted to say hi and ask you to bless us all...and be with me through my senior year ok? Help mebe strong and do what I need to do to be happy and successful...I love you and miss you just as much as ever.... Casey Close
hey!/ Casey Hodges (daughter) Hey Momma! Well I take the dental admissions test tomorrow and I am soooo nervous! You aren't here to calm me down so I thought maybe talking to you on here might help a little. I have been studying so so much but I am so scared I will go in there and not know a thing! I really need to do well on it. Things seem to be going my way lately so I am hoping this will too! Help me stay relaxed and confident ok? Remember how excited we were when I did so good on the ACT...hopefully I will be that excited tomorrow..I get my results as soon as I am done which is a little intimidating. Well Wes should be here soon so I am going to go try and relax. Love you and miss you like always.....xoxoxoxoxoClose
Happy Mother's Day! / Casey Hodges (daughter) Hey Momma, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!!! I am sure you are celebrating with your mom! Tell her hi from me...Dad and Jerry are coming down to move a bunch of my stuff home today...can you believe my junior year of college is almost over? Crazy huh? We are going to go eat somewhere and we will all be wishing you were there! Thanks for helping me be strong lately...I am trying to have faith that everything will end up how it is supposed to but it was easier when I had you here supporting me...not that I don't have support...I have tons...but you had a way of always helping me to see things from different perspectives! Anyway, wish I could get a present up to you but a prayer and this note will have to do....I love you so much Mom!Close
I am needing you tonight and here I am back at this website. A lot of things are changing in my life right now and I'm scared and questioning every move I make. I need you to give me some strength and show me I am making the right choices..the choices you would encourage me to make if you were here. I really wish you were here...nobody makes me feel better the way you did....help me just get through finals and get home okay....I love you so much and miss you more than anything in the world.... Close
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miss you / Jack And Mary Ann Crowdis (friend)
hey its jack and my mom i miss you alot I wish you were here i wish i could have got to known you better. i just went down to centre to see wes and casey was there. Im sure you know but dani and eric are married how casey read at the wedding i was one of the grooms men. every day in school we say a prayer and then petitions i prayed for you today. last monday some student killed a bunch of people at virgina tech it was sad they even put the flag at half mass. im doing good at soccer i just got back from rockford illinois we didnt do to good i played ok well i played really good the second game im going to start asking you to helpl in my games caus ei always say a prayer before my games. i hope your having fun upstairs tell john the apostle and jesus i said hey Close
Here I am missing you again and really needing to talk but I have to settle for this website...It's so frustrating...I miss you so much..sometimes I just really need to hear your voice and your advice...nights like tonight I still have that instinct to pick up the phone and call you because I know you would know exactly what to say to me. I am so confused, I need your advice so much you always knew the right choices even if I didn't listen and you were always there even if I made the wrong choice. Looking back, I wonder if I made a lot of wrong choices and I need to know now what to do and you aren't here to tell me. I have missed you and thought about you every day you have been gone but lately it's like I am so desperate to talk to you and there is nothing I can do about it. It's not fair I am only 21 you are supposed to still be here to show me what to do and you're not. It's not fair I am so mad because I want you here so bad. I still don't understand...I want a reason I want to know why I have to wake up every day and know it's another day without you...I need you to be with me right now and help me be strong like you were...I wish I was half as strong as you were but I am not...I wanna be..but I am not...Please find a way to be with me...I don't feel as close to you lately and I need that to get through the day...I love you so much...I always will...I need my mom...I need my best friend...and there is nothing I can do about it....nothing....I am going to try and go to sleep...see you in my dreams I hope...I love you always and forever...CaseyClose
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